in 2016 is when it all started
i remember my x argument/fight with me for no reason, and she was doing strange things like what? such as putting password on her cell, getting late at home from job
she was forcing me do things i was uncomfortable with and she even challenged me with my 2 years daughter, taking her at hospital for visits that she didn"t need , so i was in so much pressure from her
after 6 month of family abuse she did she ran away from us ( me&daughter) and guess she was with someone else which i was guessing
i did not take that easy i was in real panic but strange things was happening ; her parents was calling and telling me she is using drugs don't let her see the daughter,
i visited a psychiatrist and told him some of my story and me being paranoid i even believed someone was trying to kill me
he prescribed me: respiridon 1mg, escitalopram 20mg, alprazolam
i did not trust the drugs i was doing my best to find relaxation and i was planning to quit the drugs and find my way back where i used to be
the problem is that strange things did not stop happening to me and i don't think i am being paranoid this time
there is a strange way of how ppl have treated me these last years;
i have married with a woman i trusted but she never stopped arguments/fights but its not just her, it is a strange way of how everyone i know treated me and i did not even have where to confess
they have used tactical ways to make me feel paranoid, confused, threatened
i feel like i have been totally brainwashed i could not even speak my mind for two months all i was ever doing is being ALERTED on what's next
i feel like i have been abused to the zombie state of mind , frustrated as there can be no more
i have quit taking drugs i don't trust my own ppl anymore they have gone too far i dont even trust myself to go for a walk which i never had a problem with