Coming up on 6 months clean off weed

Hello friends, hope everyone is doing okay.

I’m roughly a week away from hitting my 6 months mark. It’s been a crazy experience and unfortunately still fighting to get back to “normal.”

Anxiety persists, depression daily, low motivation, lack of confidence, lack of joy, and just being socially awkward which really bothers me. I used to be the most outgoing person, now I tend to avoid social interactions. I still try to socialize but it just doesn’t feel the same since starting what hopefully is paws.

As I’ve stated before I have no problem falling asleep, I actually sleep too much in my opinion. I used to be perfectly okay running off of 6-7 hours of sleep Before i quit now tend to sleep for 10 hours and still feel groggy when waking up. Mornings are the worst for me. On the bright side I’m usually pretty calm in the evenings. But that resets when I wake up the following day.

Things that have helped me to a degree are meditation, exercising, chamomile tea, and just trying to keep busy. My libido has also gotten much better but not sexually active due to overthinking and still not feeling myself. I would also love a girlfriend but in no way am I mentally prepared for that which is unfortunate.

I believe weed helped keep me calm and definitely gave me a kickstart when going about my day. It gave me something to look forward to when running errands, hanging out with friends, or even just being alone playing video games. I truly enjoyed going to random spots like views or the beach and smoking.

I’m hoping around the 1 year mark I find a balance or at least a turn around in feeling so down and out. I will keep everyone updated throughout the months! I truly appreciate the success stories on this forum. It’s really given me hope in making a full recovery. Take care everyone and hope to hear from you all.