Ummm... I'm about to explode at any moment, any tips?

It's me again, guys, yes, walked into a nail again.

I just don't know why this world sucks so much, or more precisely, why do PEOPLE suck so much.

I've always been a shy, quiet and reserved person. I love sticking my nose into my own business, and I can't care less about what others do. Call me selfish, reject, whatever you like, but I don't waste my time on stuff that has no impact on my life.

And frequently, I get moody because I'm displeased with certain things. Most of the time, it's how the stupidity of others bother me. The most simple thing would be having a bunch of monkeys laugh and yell in a place reserved for studying. Another type would be a car sounding its horn right behind you for no real reason. A third would be someone you rely on forgetting something because of negligeance. I can go on and on forever.

Why do I have to suffer from OTHERS' mistakes??? I've never understood that. I always try NOT to bother others at any costs, and I just know it.

And lately, I'm about to explode.

I'm an extremely quiet, and peaceeful person, as I said. I NEVER go out to hunt people down, or provoke them. But why do people provoke me? Especially at home? NOBODY LEAVES ME ALONE! For goodness sake, I'm just, for instance, surfing the net peacefully, and this person comes up to me and tells me to "leave", because that person needs it. Or "you've been on for too long, get off." I mean, what the hell? I'm not even bothering them when I'm doing my stuff, and I don't care what they do. Why should they care of what I do?

It NEVER ceases! They always have something to say about me, when I've got 1000 times more to complain about them! But for the harmony under the roof, I'll rather shut up. Sometimes, I just want to snap back at them, but I'm obviously a vulnerable soul, and I'm not fond of arguments. I'm always the one who shuts up first, and leave the other in the illusion that he won.

I just try to ignore them, but I've noticed, for instance, when I feel like exploding, I tend to almost crush the computer mouse in my hand while they blab.

Or, in other cases, I NEVER(or rarely) ask for anything, compared to most of my age. I don't try to look cool, up to date, fancy, advanced. I just need my basic needs. Then, every once in a while, when I do ask for something, I NEVER get it.

This world just ins't fair, and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. And no, I'm not submitting to the "RULE", because I don't deserve it. And because of them, I fear someday, I might just lose control of myself, and snap back at all of them at once, and perhaps have a stroke, or really go nuts.

Anyone wants to comment, or share their experience?

Sorry for this long boring thing, but I had to get this out somehow. I can't even talk properly to my friends, because they aren't good listeners at all. Basically, I would be talking about something I want to share, and the moment I stop to take a breath, they'll find ways to change topics. And I can FEElL that they're not interested. But out of respect, I NEVER do that to them. No matter how boring they are, I just listen, and try to get interested, because I know they, too, need to be listened. But I'm the only one not being listened.

This sucks.