I’m so tired of life

I find it hard to see good in people. I feel people have become so evil and hurtful. The barbaric attitudes so many have become. It hurts me so much seeing this. It makes me not want to be in this life anymore. The things people do to others and animals kills me. I hurt on so many levels. I feel society has started to devolve instead evolving. Life’s circle. I can’t count how many time I have wish for the strength to take that one step. I had signed myself one time into a clinic because I tried to use a belt to choke myself out. It was the scariest time there. My wife said if I ever feel like that again to talk to her and I told he hell no. I would not talk to anyone fearing doing so would get me locked up instead of being able to express my feelings.