Feel lost and overthinked because of fixing PC for 2 years

I know this would be a bit dumb or like "are you serious or not"
and I'm not sure if theres only one person in the world and that's me that having things like..Depression on PC


Like whenever any "not a good sign" sound occurs , it keeps me Overthinking/overworried and it haunts around me for almost a year now. Try fixing things by having new one replaced and another one starts to happen. Depression keeps adding into me further more

when your freshly Build PC is fine all along and things happened. You fixed A,B Comes out. You fixed B,C & D comes out, etc.

I try to hide these fear. All the stress and worryness are kept to me, Since It would not make any close friends I known or even parents who can talk with you in anything will understand

I haven't try (or have any interest) to see a therapist

Sometimes it feels like myself not being a good person enough. Everything around me are fragile and everything I own is too easy too broken, : (

Maybe because I'm sitting here with my computer throughout most of my life. It brings me new world and being myself. Staying with something too long could be too hard to lose it for me.

Talking about these Overthinking/OCD/Panicking haunts me in IRL : not feeling happy all the time nor having fun feels , Less hungry to breakfast or lunch , My interest on a work as a streamer has decreased heavily. even though It's my best thing I can do, Someday I even thinking that a suicide attempt would end all

Recently, I feel lost and heavily overthinking more and more . Like, How do I gonna live without this,how can I survive without parents guiding or help destressing anymore (since I know one day it will come) and my minds keep saying "I'm not even dare to cook any meal and scared of gas tank,fire,electric,whatever. How can I'll be out there alone"

all of these are still now,not history. I still suffered from all of these, I will be very smiled if I know someone having this kind of issue I'm currently facing. As far I can recall this situation has been stay around me for a year now

Just..I dont know what to go on from now