I'm 18 years old and I lost my job last year when I was 17, but this wasn't my fault. So far I have had 13 interviews this year, and keep getting rejected. This adds to me feeling depressed, stressed out and angry.
My brother had an eating disorder which led to me eating mainly plant based foods. His weight loss started in January 2016 where he just starved himself all year. I lost 60 pounds going plant based and eating the right foods, but my body doesn't feel great. My father is lazy and sits at home playing computer games for 3-7 hours a day whenever he has a day off. We hardly talk about interesting subjects in a restaurant, and it's awkward.
I live with my mother and her annoying boyfriend who I don't really like either.
I'm a bit too pale, and don't know if I should take vitamin supplements. His eating disorder makes me feel guilty if I eat junk foods such as chocolate, or cake.
This job search is getting really tiring, and it makes me lose hope. I'm currently at college studying journalism (I'm in the UK) and will go on to study a degree in London if I can deal with how busy the city is.
Everything is going badly so far. I'm always so negative with myself, been called selfish and cold by people I know etc. Maybe I'm too scared to love someone in case I get hurt and that's why I don't really think about other people's feelings so much when I get angry or emotional.