Hi guys!
I've never actually used a forum before, but maybe it will help me understand what I'm dealing with.
I've been in a relationship for the past 7 years and I really do love this man thought my anxiety makes question it sometimes.
I never really experienced anxiety up until about 5 months ago. My dudes mom came to visit and ended up in the hospital. When she was released, I offered to have her stay with us. At the time I thought that was the best option.
Well the day she came home from the hospital, something changed in me and my boyfriend could see it. I became depressed all of a sudden and two weeks later, my anxiety kicked in. I was having it on a daily basis and it would get to where I'd wanna run. It's crazy because I'm the one who offered her to stay.
Eventually, it projected on my relationship. I started having thoughts to break up even though it's not what I wanted and I felt like I was gonna go crazy. I was constantly questioning my feelings and if it was really how I felt.
My job even started giving my anxiety from the stress I deal with on a daily basis and because I was unhappy. I would have thoughts to just walk off and not return.
To this day, I'm still dealing with anxiety on a daily basis. I wake up and it's already there. Sometimes it's not so bad and other days I just wanna pack up and leave. It's mostly projected on my relationship now and I still get the thoughts daily that maybe I should end it, but when I think to do it, I get so emotional. I've become emotionally distant and my interest in sex is barely there.
I'm just trying to figure out what is really going on.