I had a summer holiday when I discovered hypnosis 2 years ago. Before that I was extremely stressed by school, the word "homework" alone caused me to go into panic mode. I learned hypnosis by watching youtube video`s and taking over their methods.
This helped and learned me to stay calm and I even whent so far as to formulate my own suggestions aswel as to implement them. I had triggers for extra strength(temporary, formulated as a 30% increase), speed and a few other things I can't remember at the the top of my head. It also made my mind very flexible. allowing me to change the way I think through pure force of thought or if anything I do requires a change in thinking. It also allowed me and stil allows me to study better.
However, since a while ago, I found my critical thinking skills going up and even function inside a session if I am deep enough. This made a hypnosis session much more difficult and eventually made implementing any suggestion impossible. I tried forcing myself not to think or use hypnotic suggestions to stop it while in hypnosis and even both at the same time.
My problem is that the induction(relaxation method) works fine, but once I get deep enough, my critical thinking is strangely enough working again, preventing me from going deeper and eventually takes me out of hypnosis again.
The way my mind currently works is that I have 2 parts of my mind: Emotions and Critical thinking, these both work as seperate "entities", but stil far from any seperate personalities. I have also become a much more rational person, using my emotional part less and temporarily releasing it compleetly when I am at home in my own room.
I suggest things in a hypnosis suggestion by thought, I prefer it over a recording, because I know what I want to implement as I am suggesting it, allowing for a great and easy way of implementing a suggestion perfectly.
I am looking for a way of fixing this problem.