Erm... well, I've felt wary of him ever since I met him about three years ago... I don't know why - I've always found him quiet and unassuming, though that unnerves me for some reason
A while back (over a year or so ago), I was sitting at my desk and he was standing right behind me, looking at my computer screen. I felt uneasy and ended up completely blanking (though hoped I could get away with it)... He asked me if I was alright... I simply said "yes" (my manners went out of the window
).
This may or may not be relevant: a few weeks ago I had a leak in my dining room... water was literally pouring into the room from a pipe. I felt panicked - as though someone had broken into the house and threatened me - though carried on as normal, the leak was fixed the next day or so.
Just under a week later, the guy in question (I'll call him 'K') was in the room where I work - I was really busy and it felt as though he had appeared from nowhere. I was feeling uneasy by his presence by this time. I apologised for leaving him waiting, dealt with what I needed to, then sorted what he wanted. He thanked me, was about to leave the room, then turned round and said words to the effect of "I'll see you later / I'll be back" I didn't reply because for some reason I felt so angry at him. Since then, I've been panicking every time I see him (though try to mask it as I have to work and don't want 'the world' to know I can't tolerate him being within fifty feet of me).
There's something about kind, gentle men paying me any sort of attention. It's daft, I know. It's as if I want to scream 'back off' when K approaches. There's no logic to my fear - he hasn't done anything untoward, just said "hello", the usual work chat and held the door open for me (which I blooming well hate too!
) The more he does for me, the more angry I get... (this has been the pattern with all the males I've panicked with) - it's as if there's a voice in my head of the other person saying "I've done that for you, so you owe me". I know logically that the other person does it because that's how they are... I would do the same: if I can help someone, I will, I don't want anything back in return because I want to do it. I don't understand my fear.