This is legit the first time I've ever used a site like this in my life. Im stressed, i don't know what to do about anything right now in my life(well ovb i do but i feel like I'm always being stressed to make big decisions) . First off I'm 21 year old college dude from just outside of Boston. I come from a single mother house hold, ( my mother is a very physically abusive and verbally/mental abuser since a child even know its getting better now but holy ****, a lot of my stress comes from here..... Im in a relationship that I've been in for almost 2 years and ever since the 1 year anniversary it basically went to sh**.... she's a AMAZING girl, pretty, smart, loyal and even the family loves me..... but I want to leave( ive been told by the almost everyone how stupid I am) her and be single. People want me to stay but all we seem to do is fight and argue. The sex isn't as great because we've been fighting non-stop for a year now. I see all my friends up at college and even just single.... I miss the simple things about being single( even know trust me, i know it could get boring). IM 21 YEARS OLD!!!!!I don't want to look back when im 40 with a whole family and house/ career and say I missed out on meeting new people and simple having fun and not having to feel married every day. Please any opinions would be much appreciated. As f***ed up as it is( I I dont want to talk to much about this but I wanted you guys to see where im coming from and where im at in life emotionally) I was with another girl last week ( mind you, me and "my girlfriend" are on a break) and we had sex..... ive seen this girl 3 days this week already and let me tell you I am so happpppppppppppy
lol we get along, the sex is on a whole nother level, we both smoke, we both just vibe and its great. SO should I officially officially end my relatioships(basically over but my girl is in love with me and Thats why I dont want to hurt her like that, if i keep her along it"ll hurt me too along with her........ another thing im stressed about is school... i want to trasnfer to a University to live on campus( live my life, im from the hood so my goal is to get out, i need ti transfer but my mother is a very evil person( trust me), Me wanting a co signer from here...... wouldnt happen. I want to live on campus instead of a community college, i want to make NEW friends, different friends, NEW GIRLS (WTF WTF WTF.. i want meet new people... bored and depressed are understatments.) I want to play sports on campus but thats the difference of me playing (for example if i stayed at a commuity college then transfer in 2 years my total debt woould be around 35k if I transfer to the school i want to know itl be around 60k in debt. Mind you though the small things I told you,thats why i feel so stuck. Im from the hood, i live with a loving, yet more abusive mother, im from the hood so trust me, i stay away but there are alot of bad people and opportunites. If i live on campus, i could have my own dorm, go where i want when i went, meet new people, network better with people at a University Vs. Community College, feeling independent, all my boys are also around (back home everyone is pregnant, in jail, or working 100 hours a week, I feel the biggest disconnect at home. Idk im so stuck. Again like I said idk how this website works but if anyone reads this, any feed back would be appricated. I as a young man know that I will make my own descsions but I dont really open up to alot of people. thank you guys, got to go back to work.
