I'm fed up with life

desperate788 wrote:It's a matter of decades I can't change.

No such thing as time. Time is a mental construct. All is now. It's never not now.

desperate788 wrote:My father and sister made that

Your father is dead, sir. Whew! One down, one to go.

they cant stand me enjoying life

In that case they have nothing to worry about. You've admitted you enjoy suffering.

I wish Saturday never ends

How would that help, an eternal Saturday of sitting on the forum complaining about your endless woes?

The point I have to suffer at work when I don't enjoy anything

So let's solve two problems at once. Quit your job, enjoy the suffering that follows, and die on the streets. I honestly don't know what's stopping you.

I'm dependant on my comfort.

You and the rest of the world... except that two thirds of the world doesn't have the comfort you have. Too bad for them, huh?

Worried anxious mood prevents me to do anything I can't travel can't even drive car

Do you not see that as complaint? You're complaining again!

I will not complain anymore

Rubbish. It's your favourite thing to do.

I can't change.

So why keep asking forum members, in half a dozen posts a day, to help you?

There's no hope for you. None whatsoever. You are utterly selfish.

I can't change but I want to. I want to enjoy life it's short when I die I will say all my life was suffering I don't want that. I subconsciously enjoy suffering that's obvious I want to stop that.

desperate788 wrote:I can't change but I want to.

So get offline and think about it: what kinds of changes you want. Make lists of things you want to do, things you want to be, and things you want to have. Get started on it now, working out how you can get to some of those things.

I want to enjoy life it's short

Say it out loud, "I enjoy life". There's no reason why you shouldn't be enjoying it right now.

when I die I will say all my life was suffering

When you die you'll say nothing. You'll be dead. Isn't that great? Something to look forward to?

I want to stop that.

So stop it, right now. No one here can do that for you. And keep your promise not to complain, here or anywhere else.

Yes sometimes think death is great those cursed like feelings worries anxiety sometimes think death would be nice want it to happen as soon as possible sometimes some false hope emerges and I don't want to die. Things I want aren't so much as I wrote before. Travel world enjoy sexuality and music those are the basics

desperate788 wrote:Travel world enjoy sexuality and music those are the basics

Not for a lot of people. You're a lucky guy.

FYI, food and shelter are the basics -- and plenty of people don't have those.

Yes sleeping at bed in a warm house and having food on table are the real basics. I should be thankful.

I hope everything will be fine.

desperate788 wrote:I should be thankful.

So why aren't you?

Cancel that. We don't need another litany of what's wrong with you and your life.

New book reading and commentary.

I haven't listened to this audio(video) yet, but I've read the book some years ago.

"Think feelingly only of the state you desire to realize. Feeling the reality of the state sought and living and acting on that conviction is the way of all seeming miracles. All changes of expression are brought about through a change of feeling. A change of feeling is a change of destiny."

I don't believe in miracles. They don't happen.

desperate788 wrote:I don't believe in miracles. They don't happen.

Exactly what you'll experience, then.

edit:
The previous text says "seeming" miracles, by the way.

I have listened for a while couldn't understand much.