My weird weed story

**Posts:** 2 · by **Bannoura** » Tue Apr 20, 2021 4:14 pm

hey everyone, new here , i just need some advice or help, and my story is kinda long so please have patience with me. first of all i am 34, on and off with pot but always been a light smoker, never built high tolatence for THC. In fact quit for 7 months before the incident ( more about incident below)

on November 17 2020, i smoked pot ( high THC strain) out of a apx 2 vape pen. i then had a panic attack, didn't like the feeling and was scared that i am gonna be high forever ( which ironically is what seems to have happened).

i woke up the next day high , way too high for my liking, and that's when i believe my anxiety kicked in big time , i thought maybe another night of sleep and i might be ok, well that went on for about a week and a half where i was feeling seriously off and knew things are never gonna be the same . things subsided over time but i had this high feeling the whole time, i never felt normal again . its this constant haze feeling that never went away, its been 5 months now. the strange part also is that i would be feeling about 60% then all of the sudden i would get hit with a much heavier haze feeling , where it felt like i just got a bad high or drunk in a way, but it's not fun high or drunk . it made me feel so much worse, i could not function and 3 pm felt like 11 pm, its weird. the waves eventually got less intence but still felt them and they gave me anxiety big time. i dont believe i experience those waves or episodes anymore, but i am constantly in a state of haze , it just feels worse when i have a bad night of sleep, and seems to get better when i sleep well, but i never felt a 100% . always felt off. The haze disconnected waves do still show up but at a much lesser intensity, and I would gradually get better then get hit again . Sorry if I am being confusing here .

i also have light sensetivity and light burning sensation above my eyes, hard to explain, but i believe that i started to notice this after not sleeping for a whole week due to me getting off medication , which messed me up even more. but i am trying to at least recover from that for now, which I did for the most part, I get 6 to 8 hours every night and eye doctor said I have dry eye so I am trying .

i did a CT scan for my brain, and a lot of blood and urine work and nothing wrong was found. eventually went to therapy and she said i am suffering from GAD and the THC overdose from the bad trip caused chemical imbalance , she did mention that noway to know the type of damage the overdose did to me and she assured me that i dont have derealization or Deporsalization, and i checked the symptoms. No doctor was able to figure out whats wrong with me , they just send to to pschoiatrist and they just want to give me anti depression medication, which I am trying to avoid .

i found a forum that had a few posts about people going through something similar, even got in contact with a few and they said they are ok now specially after a bad trip, some took weeks, some months.

my co worker went through something similar, he did edible, blunt and vape pen, ended up in the hospital and was off for 6 months, unfortunately i didn't get enough details from him , but he said he still has anxiety, but minor.

overall, i feel off and devastated, i feel like i ruined my life and i will never be the same. my anxiety is at unbearable levels because even though sometimes i feel like i am getting better , very slowly, i cant help but feel like i am not getting better. i guess i try to compare how i was before the trip and right after. Due to my anxiety also, I kept thinking that I somehow inhaled toxic materials from the vape pen I used and somehow made it to my brain, I spoke to multiple doctors that said it was biologically impossible, and even if I did it would be so little to cause this type of reaction. I also know for a fact that the weed was not laced. So as far as I know , this is pure intolerance to high THC .

i would appreciate some support and if anyone knows what i might be going through, or gone through something similar, please help me out.

thank you

**Posts:** 3015 · by **tokeless** » Tue Apr 20, 2021 5:36 pm

Hi,
It seems you had a bad experience with high THC weed that has kicked off an anxiety disorder in you. All the symptoms you describe are similar to anxiety and this makes you focus on them more than is healthy. Try not analyse your symptoms because it creates a chain reaction which triggers more and it self repeats. You will be ok, you aren't permanently damaged and if you stop the neurosis things will improve. Read your post again and imagine you are me..... what is your advice?

**Posts:** 2 · by **Bannoura** » Tue Apr 20, 2021 7:00 pm

tokeless wrote:Hi,
It seems you had a bad experience with high THC weed that has kicked off an anxiety disorder in you. All the symptoms you describe are similar to anxiety and this makes you focus on them more than is healthy. Try not analyse your symptoms because it creates a chain reaction which triggers more and it self repeats. You will be ok, you aren't permanently damaged and if you stop the neurosis things will improve. Read your post again and imagine you are me..... what is your advice?

I have not been able to find my symptoms online at all, I get the anxiety, but the hazy disconnected feeling ( almost like reintoxication) hits me now after a few days of starting to get better , just keeps coming back .

**Posts:** 3015 · by **tokeless** » Tue Apr 20, 2021 7:31 pm

I think it's psychosomatic, but if you search the web long enough something will prove you right.... and create even more anxiety.

**Posts:** 6 · by **WeWillHeal** » Thu Nov 11, 2021 3:07 pm

Hi Bannoura. I have been a lurker on this board for 2 months and your post caused me to create an account. Your situation was very similar to mine. The main difference is I was for the most part a daily user from age 23 to 31. I never smoked all day everyday but often used a little bit of Marijuana for sleep.

In August, I had a very strange panic attack after hitting a vape pen. I have had the overwhelming anxiety from weed before where your heart races but this one was different. It was like something became seriously wrong with my brain. It almost felt like a stroke, but I am sure it wasn't. I came down from it and calmed down. The strange thing was, I did not feel like I was overwhelming high before this trip but nonetheless, what happened happened. I have used vape pens plenty in the past over the last 6 years or so. The next day I quit caffeine and marijuana cold turkey. 3 days later I started having terrible anxiety, depression, withdrawal (Despite taking multiple 1-3 month long breaks in the past without these effects). This lasted for 2-3 weeks before easing off into what feels like PAWS.

Things started to become a lot better the last 2-3 weeks until these last couple of days. A wave of feeling like I was high, with bad brain fog has rushed over me. Very crappy and scary feeling when that happens. Health anxiety plagues me because despite knowing all of my symptoms are most likely caused by anxiety and possibly PAWS, I can't help but think how bizarre my experience was that day in August and I will admit that even though logically I know it was the marijuana abuse over years, I still can't help but wonder if something terrible happened to me that day. I am now somewhere around 80 days sober from everything including the occasional use of alcohol and my one cup a morning coffee. Some things had improved but I am still not feeling myself. I was hoping things would be linear in terms of recovery, but it appears that is not the case. I am worried about seasonal depression being amplified by this as winter gets closer, but I am determined to stay sober and do my best to heal.

The blessing in disguise in all of this has been my renewed interest in God and Christianity. If anyone is reading this and that is not your thing, that is fine but I thought I would share that prayer has helped me feel better during some dark times. It seems the only thing I can do stay sober, eat healthy, lean into the love of my family, and strengthen my faith.

This is happening at a strange time. Financially things have never been better and only continue to improve. I am sorry if that is an off putting detail, but I only provide it for context as I feel numb to it. I am fit and never had many self confidence issues until now. I used to travel often when I could and the thought of traveling now is rather frightening. I used to have a lot of confidence around women, and lately I can't even bring myself to even try dating as I feel I am not myself. Life feels like it should be good, but things are definitely off. I am sure marijuana filled that a void for a long time. Exercise has been helpful. Marijuana is a powerful drug that I underestimated for over a decade with 8 years those years being used daily, especially since covid hit. I will never use it again. I have considered therapy, but I am worried that that would make it worse. I am determined to never take anti depressants or anxiety medicine and to let my brain recover with time and nutrition.

If anyone has had a similar experience with one particular marijuana trip sending them into a panic attack that they have not seemed to fully pull themselves together from months later, I would love to hear your recovery story.

I believe we will recover.

God bless.

**Posts:** 6 · by **WeWillHeal** » Thu Nov 11, 2021 3:22 pm

Sorry for some of the typos in that last post. Brain fog is real.

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