well, today i really messed up. i got upset at work to the point of yelling, and no one stopped me until i was done yelling. I work in retail. I went to pick up my check and it was only about half of what I thought it would be.
After work when i went to straighten it out, the lady that is in charge of schedules, hours, etc. showed me what my mistake was. I had failed to read in very fine print in the store handbook that we only get paid vacation for part time help after two years. I only received 11 hrs. out of 30 hrs. vacation time I requested. My voice raised slightly (I thought) and yes i probably started to argue. She said, "you know You're yelling at me and you yelled at my assistant earlier today!" This really upset me more that she accused me of yelling. Then I just got so angry! she said, "Do you want to talk to a Manager?" I was so angry! I agreed imediately, but i had a feeling everything was going according to her plans, but no reason why that i know of. She led me into the Manager's room, and I was still so angry, finally, she called the store Manager in there, and he said to me i had to calm down, I said I didn't have to . He also said. "nobody yells at me!" I said, " At this point I don't care!" this story goes on and on. But to make a long story short, I pretty much made an _ _ _ of myself. I'm going to have to work extra hours to make up for the lost time.
Here's the situation; I used to be very passive with my anger, and i would quit before anyone would know I was upset. I would have used an excuse that sounded good for quiting, and not the real reason, and they would never hear from me again. Now I want so much to be assertive and to work out my differences and to keep my job, however, I can get very angry, and aggressive, instead of that middle road. you know where you say your part and recognize you have to accept and move on if you can't change something? I really wouldn't be surprised if i get fired over this, but so far, they haven't, I've only been given more hours!