Depressed and heartbroken

I'm not even sure where to start. I recently had a major organ transplant. I feel worse than when I did before. Even with symptoms, my Dr's don't find anything on my tests. I've been seeing Dr's all of my life for my many health problems, for the first time ever, I've started having feelings for one of my Dr's. To make it worse, he is attracted to me too. So for the first time in a long time someone wonderful likes me back but in yet another cruel twist of fate we're separated forever. Story of my life. I could go on forever but I think I'll stop here.