I am 34.
I never finished college.I am in Germany by myself but I don't speak German.I don't have a job, actually I never had a proper one.I am eating everything that is bad every day, from cheese to cakes, I now have 15 kilos more.I don' have a house, i live in a room, and I can't find a house because they say I have to present income (my family puts money in to my account every month) but they don' accept it.My skin is getting older because of all the things that I am eating.I don't have the strenght anymore.I don't want to go back to live with my parents (I am from the south of europe) I don't know how to do anything.
I am living like this for the past 3 years, I am dead inside.
I just wanted to say this to someone.
Thank you
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by svmsudhir » Thu Apr 11, 2013 6:15 am
O hi Amarie.. well, I can't refrain you from dying this way..
but let's see if we can make it more meaningful.
I suggest you stop worrying about Job or education or your social status.. These all came afterwards... Initially, for humans, everything was only limited to the survival of the self.. then came the family concept.. then the society...then nation and all that crap.. So don't bother much if you are a successful (that's the term everybody uses.. but believe me - it means nothing!!!) human or not.
You could not complete the college.. okay.. but you finished your schools.. Good!
You r living in Germany and you don't speak German.. Okay.. But you are surviving there since last 3 years and that's really great!
They don't allow you to have a house.. Okay.. But they do not expel you from the country or prevent you from having your own income.. Good thing.. u c?
You eat Bad things everyday.. hmm.. is that because you can afford only that? Somehow, we do injustice to our body and when it fails - curse it.. not a good practice pal. Strive for better Food.. Have a taste for Good clothings.. Feel compelled to have a better shelter.. YES! you deserve that.. every living human does.. Some start late... some end up early.. but that should not stop us from Doing things..
Okay. you say your family deposits money for you. thats ok. one day you will definitely support them.. and promise this to you.. you will.
This condition of yours is only from last 3 years. uhh? so no big deal.. Lets forget it... and forget it at once!! you can always dismiss these doomed years and welcome life again..
Nobody restricted you to stay at the Receiving end ALL the TIME!!! please wave off that approach. It is not helping you at all, instead it is inducing a guilty feeling deep inside.. which culminates all the basic thought process.
You would like to change this status.. I know u would.. and i know how to do it..
*Start helping others with their little difficulties.. its FREE!
It will start building a "good-will shield" around you.. and you will also start gaining self respect..
*Make friends with little kids.. they will pump the Life energy back into you. a lot we can learn from them!
*Explore your own skills. Everybody is good with something in childhood..these skills get suppressed (not killed though) as we grow up and do not find their use in this Materialistic world.. they might come handy now.. and you may come up with an innovative way to use those for your living.. (additionally you will have something to show and get u a house)..
hey friend, you know its only you saying "NOWWW!!!" and the whole system will gear up. you will feel an initial inertia to stick to your misery... but stay calm and kill it cold-bloodedly! I know its not easy as it sounds.. but not that difficult as u evaluate now..
Just start.. and there will be no looking back... you will find your own way..and happiness. u will regret for the 3 years you lost.. but u will certainly thank the moment u decided to fight back the destiny..
Please don't mind if I have offended u in any way.. thanks for sharing your thoughts so honestly.. I loved that!
wishing you the BEST of Life... take care....
but let's see if we can make it more meaningful.
I suggest you stop worrying about Job or education or your social status.. These all came afterwards... Initially, for humans, everything was only limited to the survival of the self.. then came the family concept.. then the society...then nation and all that crap.. So don't bother much if you are a successful (that's the term everybody uses.. but believe me - it means nothing!!!) human or not.
You could not complete the college.. okay.. but you finished your schools.. Good!
You r living in Germany and you don't speak German.. Okay.. But you are surviving there since last 3 years and that's really great!
They don't allow you to have a house.. Okay.. But they do not expel you from the country or prevent you from having your own income.. Good thing.. u c?
You eat Bad things everyday.. hmm.. is that because you can afford only that? Somehow, we do injustice to our body and when it fails - curse it.. not a good practice pal. Strive for better Food.. Have a taste for Good clothings.. Feel compelled to have a better shelter.. YES! you deserve that.. every living human does.. Some start late... some end up early.. but that should not stop us from Doing things..
Okay. you say your family deposits money for you. thats ok. one day you will definitely support them.. and promise this to you.. you will.
This condition of yours is only from last 3 years. uhh? so no big deal.. Lets forget it... and forget it at once!! you can always dismiss these doomed years and welcome life again..
Nobody restricted you to stay at the Receiving end ALL the TIME!!! please wave off that approach. It is not helping you at all, instead it is inducing a guilty feeling deep inside.. which culminates all the basic thought process.
You would like to change this status.. I know u would.. and i know how to do it..
*Start helping others with their little difficulties.. its FREE!
It will start building a "good-will shield" around you.. and you will also start gaining self respect..
*Make friends with little kids.. they will pump the Life energy back into you. a lot we can learn from them!
*Explore your own skills. Everybody is good with something in childhood..these skills get suppressed (not killed though) as we grow up and do not find their use in this Materialistic world.. they might come handy now.. and you may come up with an innovative way to use those for your living.. (additionally you will have something to show and get u a house)..
hey friend, you know its only you saying "NOWWW!!!" and the whole system will gear up. you will feel an initial inertia to stick to your misery... but stay calm and kill it cold-bloodedly! I know its not easy as it sounds.. but not that difficult as u evaluate now..
Just start.. and there will be no looking back... you will find your own way..and happiness. u will regret for the 3 years you lost.. but u will certainly thank the moment u decided to fight back the destiny..
Please don't mind if I have offended u in any way.. thanks for sharing your thoughts so honestly.. I loved that!
wishing you the BEST of Life... take care....
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