Solitude

Hi guys!

I try as possible to share my knowledge and help others in their struggles, but recently I have bunch of struggles and I need to talk about it, and have some advices... Even if I know I am 1000% responsible of my whole struggle and that I make all those thoughts...

So I have been alone my entire life, not because people rejected me, but by choice. I read a LOT of personal development and I don't want to be around people of my age (20 years old) who are most of the time negative and only finding excuses for everything happening to them. Also I am introvert and a bit social anxious , so I love to be alone in peace of mind. However, as every single introvert, there are moments where you feel alone, that you don't belong to that world, relationships with other gender doesnt work, people dont come talking to you etc etc... and I am in that situation... where I feel like nothing drives me ( I dont play video games anymore etc).. I was talking to a girl, but she had a hard life, I want to help her bad but she is scared of being hurt at the end so she keeps running away... I feel like I'm so powerless about how I feel... Im exhausted and on the ground... how do you guys boost up yourself? I know.. it is all aobut perception , but I struggle... I need a ear or hug ahahaha