I'm 16 and currently a senior in high school. The problem is I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I have literally no passion for ANYTHING. I've tried so many things but I just can't find a hobby or something I enjoy without getting tired of it really quickly. It's pretty concerning. In 11th grade I took graphic design so I have a lot of portfolio for that, and right now, I'm taking TV Production class. Those I really the only two things I take even a partial interest in. But either way I can't really choose between them. The deadline for colleges I considered is February 1st, and I would need portfolio. I have some portfolio for graphic design, but if I really wanted to go into film editing, I don't think I would have enough portfolio ready by that time I need at least 10 examples. The colleges I'm considering are Cornish College of the Arts, Seattle University, Rhode Island School of Design, and College for Creative Studies. And everything seems hard because my mindset is like: whichever I go into I won't be good enough, or the colleges will reject me cause I have a cumulative GPA of 2.9 and an SAT score of 1190.
It's so hard to push through those thoughts. It seems like my low self esteem/confidence takes over every decision in my life and effects me a lot. Like. I can't even get a part time job right now without the intense fear of messing up and I REALLY want to be able to buy a camera.. I'm afraid these things will show in my later life.