fear of public speaking & social phobia

Thanks, Sh!

Oh, there is a long way before me, but the start is promising, isn't it? Now I don't know if I would start taking medications again. I visited my psychiatrist for the first time now and she decided, I must take medications. I'm not thrilled. Rather annoyed, because I feel sometimes, doctors won't bother with you. They just wanna get rid of you and prescribe you sth. Nobody takes time for you. In my opinion, every person is unique and should be handled separately, using different techniques, psychiatric methods ... I don't know what should I do. I have the right to say no to meds. But then again, she's the doctor, so she is supposed to know what to do. I have another appointment on Friday. We'll see what happens then.
I would like to feel STRONG! My greatest desire is to manage to preserve my emotional personality, but on the other hand, to show people where my borders are, to be able to relax among people, to feel accepted, and ABOVE ALL, to start thinking good about myself.

Best wishes,
Ulla

CONGRATULATIONS! You've done really well![/quote]

Thanks, Mike

.. and now you know you can do it, what's the next challenge that you'll overcome?

... hm... I want to find a job now. That means, I need to prepare for an interview/s ... and I want to work on myself, on my selfesteem and on my dealing with past, environment and emotional sensitivity ... And ... I want to have FUN!

Now I'm thinking about the future and I don't know what to do. There are too many things I want to do. And there is always "I would do this, BUT ..."

... BUT.... what?

Kathleen