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OK, here is my story which seems pretty common on these forums,
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basically I am a very sociable person and enjoy talking with people face to face, I also don't mind face-to-face meetings where we all debate and i can contribute as much or as little as I choose. Or even presenting over an audio conference call.
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Though I do have a specific social anxiety disorder around public speaking at work, whether it being a presentation or just 5mins of only myself talking in a meeting.
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I have been avoiding presentations etc for years, though also I have been to toastmasters which has helped but I soon get comfortable talking at the toastmasters meetings, though as soon as there is a work meeting I am back to square one.
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when doing around the table introductions at work, just before it is my turn my heart pounds out of my chest and I start sweating and all the rest.
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My main fear is people seeing my fear, I am not afraid of standing in front of people if I didn't have to talk, my fear stems from a time when I did have to talk and my voice quivered so everyone knew that I was very nervous. I am at the age now (32) where I should be confident with speaking and my job requires it.
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Please hold off on the replies of 'practice, practice, practice' and breathing techniques, hypnotherapy etc... As I class myself as a veteran of pubic speaking phobia. Anyone who has this will naturally practice like crazy before hand, and I have tried hypnotherapy and breathing techniques etc.. I have read multiple books about changing beliefs and imagining presentations going well etc, though still I am here writing this...
I think part of the problem is that I don't get to do presentations at work often, it is very very rare, but when I do I would panic.
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I firmly believe that practice is the key.. i.e. if you are scared of spiders, get closer and closer to one over time, you should eventually be able to hold one, then the fear should go away (right?)... though I can't do that.. I can talk to people in toastmasters etc, though it is presenting to my work colleagues/management I think that causes the fear, but I can't practice that.
Though anyway, has anyone tried beta blockers and found that they stopped a trembling voice? I know they lower heart rate etc.. but does this actually improve the voice/shortness of breath and handshake etc???
The way I see it is if I can present without showing the fear, as that is what I fear, the fear should subside (I hope!). anyway just another attempt to banish this in my long quest.