Time to Quit Marijuana

i'm 40 and have just quit smoking weed after 12 years, i'm 4 days clean and its been the most bizarre of experiences. i quit because i could feel myself going round the twist after yet another failed relationship! weed has been my enemy not my friend, it has sabbotaged my thoughts, my personality my bank account and ive also alienated 2 good friends over the years because of my chronic weed habit. i broke down infront of my folks on the day i quit, i confessed everything (THEY KNEW I WAS IN A MESS) i cried like a baby and told my mum i'd had enough and that the weed had f***ed up my life for the last 12 years. it was music to my mothers ears!! weed is dog sh** man!! i hate the stuff now and even though i know its gonna be a sporadically difficult journey at times i just know that even going through the "quitting process" is gonna be more fun than standing in my kitchen on my own smoking spliff after spliff , wondering where my life has gone whilst turning friends down and not being arsed to do anything! what a shitty existance! my 30's have been a complete blur?? what a waste! ah well, i see much better times ahead now even though its only day 4...to anybody with a weed habit, kick it into touch! you dont need it. just keep the faith.

Great attitude broadband, and congratulations for having made that decision and taken the necessary steps!

This is a great place to be, lots of wisdom being shared and it's good to pour out what lies on one's heart and mind.

Good luck with your journey!

thankyou for the kind words, it really is a massive help using this site to come to terms with ones weed addiction...its 4.30 a,m and i'm wide awake! i get up for work in an hours time aswell. mind ya, i was expecting all this and i know it will only be a temporary thing. ive had about 5 hours sleep but at least last night was the first time in 4 days that i felt naturally tired, which was a nice feeling for a change. and my breath smells like the swiss alps when i wake up! lol...another nice experience! there are so many little things that change inside you completely its unreal. and even after 4 days everybody has noticed a differance in me, i'm sharper, in a better mood, the whites of my eyes have returned, i just have more dignity i think. right i'm gonna try get a little nap in before i have to get up. keep the faith everybody

ive had a sh** day today! its day 4 and i thought that being at work doing a physical job would be just the thing i needed but that wasn't the case! i think the lack of sleep over the last previous 3 days has screwed me up today. ive been appaulingly lethargic and spaced out, my emotions have been close to the surface and i keep thinking that i'm never going to get any better, no matter what though i have no intentions of having any weed!! infact the thought of having a spliff makes me feel quite ill so that must be a positive thing?...i'll fight this all the way. i hope tommorows a better day i really do!