by Daf » Sat Jun 27, 2009 4:16 am
Hey, and thank you for the reply.
Having debated how to put this for the last ten minutes, I supposed there's no way round saying it, although it makes me feel very uncomfortable.
In my early 30s I discovered I was emotionally gifted, only because I was convinced I had psychological problems. I hate the term because at the time it felt more like a curse. To live in a world where noone seemed to feel the way I did made me feel like I was crazy. The intensity of my emotions and attachments was very hard to deal with, without any understanding of the cause. I used to look around me and think 'why does noone else feel this way?' and came to the conclusion that there was something wrong with me.
Diagnosis of my problem (as I saw it at the time) was the most amazing revelation, because I could then see not only where I felt it hindered me but also how much it had affected my life for the better.
So what I came here for really is to talk a little bit about things, share other people's emotions, see how they deal with various situations, give advice where I think I have any, but most of all to be amongst a collective that isn't afraid to talk about how they feel in depth and analyze it to a certain degree.
As for the 'practical joke' (and I apologise this post is turning into an epic). What happened was that someone I care about very much sent me a text. Without going into too much detail, the beginning of it sounded like bad news, the end showed blatantly it was simply a joke. The problem was that by the time I was half way through, reacting the way I do to things, I was already extremely upset. I usually have pretty good self control when it comes to more extreme emotions, I think i was just caught off guard. The person in question apoligised to me profusely but it literally took me hours to calm down from something that was at the end of the day, meant to make me smile.
Sometimes emotional intensity and emotional intelligence are massively at odds with eachother, and I feel I could learn alot from sifting through the posts here.
Daf x
