Loner_Wolf wrote:Hey if you know, i been using this website to relevase anger from my peer in my school Past and people around where i live, i have anger journal relevase my emotion toward them but i been having Thought of them but i don't know how to have self-controlled,pelase gire any reason or advice?i still don't like the peer from my high school that I threw my medal and award.
I've been giving you plenty of advice. I suppose you don't agree with it, and so you have been completely ignoring it.
If you Really Want Advice, Well, YOU ALREADY HAVE IT... just Go back and carefully Read what has already been written to you, and About you.
and you can Add This: it Doesn't Make Sense that Everybody could be Bullying you. IT doesn't happen like that! Bullies are Territorial, Competitive and Jealous of Each Other. People rarely have to deal with more than One Bully. That Bully in effect protects them against ALL the Other Bullies ("Stay away from HIM... he is My Punk to Push Around"). So the most Probable Reality of your Situation is that you have One Whopper of a Persecution Complex. All of this Bullying is probably Half Imagination and Half Exaggeration. What you take as Bullying is probably just the Obvious Fact that People in General simply don't like you... people are Repulsed by your negativity and, yes, they are frightened away by what must seem to them to be your 'Insane Paranoia'. But telling you to "Get Lost" is NOT Bullying. If you Act the Way you do, you can't expect to be Liked. You are not a Likeable Person. You are about 15 degrees too far over the Edge with all your Hate and Bitterness to be Likeable. But THAT is Not Bullying, Is It?
but if you SAY you are being bullied, well, there are people, even here on This Page, who aren't used to Thinking Critically and Skeptically About Stuff, and they are likely to Believe You, and give you Sympathy and Support. But, honestly speaking, even if there are actual Bullies involved, well, as is usually the Case, they will Grow Up and Grow Out of their Bullying Tendencies, and they will likely convert their Ability to Be Dominant Group Members into actually becoming a Very Competent and Capable Social Beings. They become the Leaders. They become everybody's Best Friend. Having once been a Bully doesn't hurt them a bit, and may have indeed been a Help to them. but your Seething Anger and Hatred... well, I never heard of something like THAT going away. Look at yourself. You aren't Growing Out of Anything... doesn't it just seem that it is All Getting Worse and Worse and Worse for you?
I suspect that you must Enjoy all your Hate and all your Anger. You don't really want help, do you? You just want sympathy. And that will Only make you Worse. Feeling Sorry for you just Feeds into everything that is Wrong with you. Without being Institutionalized, and probably against your Will, I honestly see No Hope for you. Sometimes here at the Anger Management Page we have to deal with a Total Lost Cause, and with experience we learn how to take it in our stride...