But he has this problem that if I air MY feeling out to him right now he feels like he's being backed into a corner. I told him that I have been holding this in since the day he walked out. That was on 6/21/04. He Also asked me , " Is this going to happen everytime we see eachother?". I said "no". And that I just wanted to let him know that I have been thinking things out in my head and working on them. I also told him I have resolved somethings that were bothering me. I have also come to trems with some things as well.
I think I am hurt that he walked out after telling me the night before. And that we could talk about things the next day after I got home from work. All He left me was a note saying good-Bye.
And yes I do understand that he might have felt trapped. But I also feel that he did it in the wrong way. I am happy in a way that he wants to patch things up. So you see, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It just seems soooo far away.
You know that funny thing about him moving out? He's only moved 4 blocks away. I know I need to give him his space. But for me right now it's like..... So near and yet so far.
I want to be happy when he's with me. But I can't seem to shake being so close to him. And I know trhat's a good thing. Being he's willing to talk it out and come back when he does not feel pressured.
I'm trying to keep myself busy. By it's so hard at night.
