Hi deadlyhours,
"I wanted to know what is my eating disorder is called so that I could do more research about it"
I suppose from the point of view of researching it, anorexia would seem the most appropriate. That doesn't mean you have to give yourself that label though. As an example; I also belong to another forum that deals a lot with anxiety, and some people there find their anxiety makes them lose their appetite. Others have a phobia of vomitting, or worry about food allergies, and as a result also develop a fear of eating. It's fundamentally the same thing, but for completely different reasons, and I'm sure those people wouldn't consider themselves to be anorexic. That's why labels sometimes don't work.
"I also feel sad, that for example I stopped walking home because I started to get really dizzy and was afraid I'd faint in the street though it's only a 20 minutes to walk."
I guess you need to think about the reasons for wanting to walk. For example, I have a car but often walk to the shops for a little exercise because I know I spend too much time sat in front of the PC. I want to stay healthy. But some peoples take exercise to extremes, and for them it's not about health but solely about losing weight - even if they don't need to.
As for feeling faint and dizzy... I think your body is trying to warn you that things aren't right. When my friend was at her lowest weight - which was a bit lower that you are - she found it hard to walk at all. There were times when we would drive round for 10 minutes waiting for a parking space close to a shop, even though it would've taken less than a minute for me to walk there from the shop we were currently at. Even then she needed to hold my arm for support. It was so sad to see her like that
"The doctors around here don't have any experiences with eating disorders that concern excessive weight loss or being unable to gain weight, because most people suffer with overweight problems, so I'm like an extremely rare case."
That's an interesting point. It shows how much lifestyle and social and media pressure must influence these conditions.
"Anyways my college schedule doesn't help at all, I'm going to take 6 classes next semester and I don't feel comfortable with eating there because people start staring at me"
Do they really stare? Even if they do, I bet it's not half as much as you think they are. And anyway, does it really matter? Yes, I know it does, but I mean does it
really matter? If you ignore them they'll soon get bored of starring. After all, isn't your own health more important than what a few ignorant people might be thinking?
I do actually understand because I too worry a lot about what people are thinking about me. Not regarding eating though. I know it's hard to ignore it, but in the great scheme of things it isn't worth stressing about.
"Lately I've been drinking a lot of milk and taking yogurt I found it helpful because I can't eat enough but drinking is much easier, so I'm switching from coffee to fluids which are rich with vitamins and carbs, I'm not sure what to do after that I might try to see another doctor."
That might be a good idea - especially a doctor with some experience of diet and nutrition. I don't know a lot about that myself, but there have been quite a few posts about it in these forums if you have search.
If your schedule allows, eating little and often would probably be easiest, because as you said, eating larger portions makes you feel uncomfortable. Over here you can get various nutritional drinks that are designed to help build a person up when they find it hard to eat. Do you have anything like that?
My friend created a website for eating disorder sufferers, and wrote a page about
Nutrition Information. It might give you an idea about what to eventually aim for. She also wrote a section about
Anorexia that you might find helpful.
"can you tell me more about what happened with your friend after she was hospitalized?"
It wasn't a good experience. Basically she was forced to eat and gain weight, and under strict supervision. Some of the things she told me about it sounded appalling, and she suffered nightmares and flashbacks about it even 2 years after.
I get the impression that while you'd rather not gain weight, you do value life and don't want to become ill, and that you do want to take positive steps towards a healthier lifestyle. My friend wasn't like that at all. She didn't really care much about life or her health - the only think she wanted to do was to lose weight and be as 'small' as possible. That's why she found forced hospitalisation so distressing. Day by day they were taking away her dreams, and were destroying all her hard work and achievements.
It was a very sad story
Take care,
Nigel