Don't know how to stop attacking myself

**Posts:** 4 · by **jodee** » Wed Dec 18, 2013 5:03 am

I attack myself in bed. I try to get to sleep but don't manage it. Then I have an overwhelming need to attack myself. I punch my head, face and legs.

I'm now too afraid to go to bed as I can't stand this happening. The bruises leave me feeling wretched.

I am a multiple. I see my bruises and think why did no one see these when I was a child after being being beaten. I have no memory of the bruises i had as a child. Seeing my bruises now is a really odd experience. It makes me feel bereft.

Recently when I feel let down by friends, I struggle with psychopathic feelings.

I used to throttle myself as a way of coping with feelings of terror and devastation. I haven't done this for a few weeks as it's very unsafe and painful and leaves me woozy the next day with a very sore neck. But it is preferable to the attacking. I fear I may go back to it, just so I can get back in the habit of not being anxious about being in bed.

I have been attacking myself for about 3 weeks now.

**Posts:** 10113 · by **JuliusFawcett** » Wed Dec 18, 2013 5:19 pm

Your mental health and your physical health are intimately related. With that in mind, may I ask you some questions?

Are you eating the right amount of healthy food? (no junk)
Are you drinking the right amount of healthy drinks? ( no alcohol, caffeinated or fizzy)
Are you taking the right amount of healthy exercise?
Are you getting a good balance between work, rest and play?
Are you looking after your physical appearance and your living environment?
Are you able to forgive past hurts?
Are you grateful to people that help your life to be more comfortable?
Are you able to trust your intuition?
Are you contributing to your local community?

**Posts:** 2122 · by **Herbie306** » Sat Dec 21, 2013 11:24 am

Hi Jodee,

Sweetheart, I am so sorry you are struggle and I urge you to seek help for this. Have you had any sort of counselling or therapy in the past? I'm gathering you haven't?

I see my bruises and think why did no one see these when I was a child after being being beaten. I have no memory of the bruises i had as a child. Seeing my bruises now is a really odd experience. It makes me feel bereft.

No doubt. It seems you are trying to come to terms with something that happened.

Does this feeling only happen when you are in bed?

Has anything unusual happened over the last month / is the time of year significant?

That little girl needs to be heard. Maybe you could try talking to her - soothe her as you would a hurt child. A bit of a warning though, doing this may bring up some difficult stuff for you - it did when I first started doing it, so please be gentle with yourself.

Recently when I feel let down by friends, I struggle with psychopathic feelings.

I'm guessing you have a lot of repressed anger for various things and when you are let down, it all comes flooding out?

Talk as much as you need to on here. Take care.

**Posts:** 542 · by **hardlife37** » Tue Jan 07, 2014 10:25 am

you could ask in the hypnosis section see if ayone can help you there ,many years ago this symptom would be known as demon posession and a priest would be called and he would cleans you and your home from any unwanted spirits living in your house ,or you would be told to move to another house . but i doubt that you are posessed by a spiritaul entity or a demon . it requires special trainging to summon up demons and spiritaul entities and they may never be summond up .many have tried and failed .

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