I am not sure if this is a problem of depression, but I don't have any other idea about my problem.
About 5 years ago, I broke with my boy friend, the beginning I felt so good, you know, the feeling of freedom back! I don't know the thing happened later has relation with the break or not.
In this 5 years-up till now, every time when I meet something unhappy, I feel want to eat. While the same time I wanna keep my body's shape. So I was about to be mad. I think I have some problem with my mental, but I don't want to see the doctor, you know, they will tell you it is ok and then give you some pills, that is all!
Oh, I even cannot describe my problem well! I become more and more nonconfident. I don't wanna meet with people most of the time. I am afriad to get any close relationship......
But at any moment, I know the feeling is exactly of my own, I am so clear that no one can help me, even I really want a person to help me.
I always ask myself, how other people get satisfied with their life? How can a person get excited so naturally? How can he just show his feeling? I cannot, I usually hide my emotions, I always try to smile to everybody, even sometimes I get hurt in my heart. I hide them all! I am afraid to show my weakness,... ...
I am curious how you think. Just tell me, even a word!