I have been at my job for exactly 1 yr now. It is a small company. Our new boss (hired 4 mth ago), berates me, undermines me, etc. Some colleagues appreciate me, others do not. All agree my science contributions are stellar. The issue with them is ‘my behavior is defensive, talk too much in meetings and i am not a cumtural fit’.
While I agree that in a couple of ocasions i have gotten defensive (though never yelled or berated anybody), i have handled many (almost daily) situations where i am insulted or berated and i calmly and peacefully either continue my presentation or shut up, according to the circumstance.
This has evolved into depression, inability to sleep, being misserable on weekends, and more.
I have lived in USA for 32 yrs, but all my family is in South America. My two grown children live out of state (no point calling them with my missery), and my wonderful husband of 30 years is by my side - but cannot make him misserable about this... bottom line, I am alone.
I am 55, not like I can go out and find jobs that easily.
I really need help and advice...