I have been trawling these forums and thought I would post to vent my own story as I want to grow as a person so I can improve myself and relationships with people around me.
I feel like I am at rock bottom. I suffer from what I would call mid range depression. It was exacerbated probably 6 months ago as there was some upheaval in my life (moved city and quit my job while wife was 6 months pregnant). I started seeing a psychologist and had around 4 sessions before my daughter was born. I felt slightly improved and felt like I was on the right track and then my daughter arrived and I stopped going as it was hard to fit in and I used it as an excuse to not have to go. Fast forward 6 weeks and I feel like I am back to square one (maybe further back!). I would describe it as feeling like a shell of a person. My laziness and seeming inability to improve myself as a person is severely impacting my relationship. I have previously relied VERY heavily on my wife to tell me what is wrong and then offer solutions or plans on how to better myself. I then don't really follow what she has suggested and it crumbles.
I suppose I am looking for ways to implement lasting change in myself. I know I want to be a better person for myself but I have no idea to go about it! I have been writing a bit of a daily journal to try and consolidate my thoughts and I have also booked another session with a psychologist but I want more tools to work on myself.
Sorry for the wall of text and I hope this is in the right section. Any suggestions are welcomed.