Hi all, I am Tweety, newbie here. I have come to know this forum through friend and I hope I could be enlightened on my dilemma and miserable condition.
I am a single mom to a 2 1/2 year old son. My husband left me during my pregnancy to another woman. My son was born with a heart disease. Raising him all alone has put me into terrible despair and sadness every day since he was born. No single cent and help was given from my husband and his family at all. I don't have any family members in Malaysia. End of 2012, when my husband found out my son is slowly recovering from his heart disease and seeing my son an adorable active kid now, he started to threat me and play harsh on conversations that he wants my son back to his family. My husband refused to sign a divorce until today because he wants to make sure I don't get any single cent from him. He told me he didn't want my son but he wants to fight for it now because my son is the only grandson in his family and his mother wants my son. He threatened me with calls, disturbed me with harsh words and he is sure I am not able to fight against him because he is financially strong and he has a big family background.
I had back bone dislocated during the delivery of my son until now I am not recovered.Due to the hectic life and struggling living, I couldn't spend any penny for myself but I could only feed my son. And just recently, I have been diagnosed with a blood vessel blockage in brain due to a car accident in 2012. I am lucky to be employed by an old mate to work in his company as a admin clerk.
Dealing with health problems and I have been feeling depressed lately. Once in a while, it mixed in suicidal thought. I know I need someone to advise me, I went to see a psychiatrist before, all he told me was just : "you need to deal with your problems yourself, no one can help you, and you need to take medicine". Guess that's not the best for me at the stage where I need a listening ear and suggestive advice.
I feel I am all alone to face all these and I have bad dreams every night seeing my husband taking my son away and I am not able to continue taking care my son.
If my husband is willingly take care my son and protect him truthfully, I knew my son would have better future. But, I cannot hand my son to such an irresponsible man and ruin my son's happiness in the future.
I am in deep dilemma and feel extremely miserable now.
I would appreciate your valuable sharing and comments and suggestions on this. Having no family members, I am all alone to suffer the pain and feeling pathetic in heart.
thank you
tweey