What I did deserves death
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by Ididsomethinggg » Sat Jun 03, 2017 10:46 pm
So I am 13 and did something really bad.. I am gay and I have an 11 year old neighbor which I admit, have had sexual thoughts about. Today we started talking and all of the sudden sex stuff came up. Before you know it I start talking to him about masterbation and typical teen stuff. He was curious and wanted to try so we went in the woods. Basically he wanted to feel what I was talking about. So I gave him a handjob, but he doesn't really know that. While I was doing that I made it sound like it was normal. During this he was also looking at porn to get turned on. He was hard but nothing happened. Still curious he wanted to see what i was talking about, so I jacked off in front of him. After i came we left. Then we went back to his house and hung out with others. During it he asked in front of them "should I tell them what we did?" and I told the others that we told each other who we like. After that I told him not to tell a soul and he agreed. But as I was leaving he said he wasn't sure about all of this. Now that I am home I feel horrible. I know what I did is wrong, and I dont want people to find out. I feel he will tell people, like his friend. His friend would probably tell others. So I am f***ing screwed. Im just so horny, and I have been turned on by him before. Please help me I really really don't want his parents or my parents to find out. (O and idk if this adds anything but I didnt sexually abuse him. He was genuinely curious and wanted to know. And when I did my heinous act he said it felt good). Even after that I still don't know if what I did was illegal. Im just so scared, scared to death. I have even thought about suicide. Please help me- he can't tell anyone, but I'm deathly afraid he will..
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by Richard@DecisionSkills » Sun Jun 04, 2017 12:57 am
Death? No. You need professional counseling that addresses the underlying reasons why you took advantage of another person to gratify your sexual urges.
Are you currently in therapy?
Mentally prepare yourself to ask for help and be honest with your parents about your problem, as:
-1- You need the help and;
-2- There is another person you victimized, a minor/child depending on the legal definition in your country/region.
The fact you are a minor means any legal charges will take your age into consideration. Where I worked as an officer you would be arrested for various offenses related to sex and abuse of a minor and then been entered into a sex offender program.
IF you are approached by law enforcement DO NOT talk with them. They should talk with your parents and your parents should retain a lawyer.
You made a mistake. We all make mistakes. Making a mistake doesn't mean you or anyone else deserves death. You know you made a mistake, now don't compound the problem by making more mistakes. As best as you can stay away from other kids where there is an opportunity to be alone until you get into therapy and can get advice from a professional therapist.
The next step is having a tough conversation with parents and/or therapist.
Are you currently in therapy?
Mentally prepare yourself to ask for help and be honest with your parents about your problem, as:
-1- You need the help and;
-2- There is another person you victimized, a minor/child depending on the legal definition in your country/region.
The fact you are a minor means any legal charges will take your age into consideration. Where I worked as an officer you would be arrested for various offenses related to sex and abuse of a minor and then been entered into a sex offender program.
IF you are approached by law enforcement DO NOT talk with them. They should talk with your parents and your parents should retain a lawyer.
You made a mistake. We all make mistakes. Making a mistake doesn't mean you or anyone else deserves death. You know you made a mistake, now don't compound the problem by making more mistakes. As best as you can stay away from other kids where there is an opportunity to be alone until you get into therapy and can get advice from a professional therapist.
The next step is having a tough conversation with parents and/or therapist.
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by undia » Thu Sep 14, 2017 4:52 pm
you don't deserve death, kids do weird stuff sometimes and you were both underage.it doesn't sound like you forced him. you clearly have guilt over it and honestly i don't think that anything bad will come out of it. I have heard of kids doing worse things than that and having no repercussions
by imasadhuman » Thu Sep 14, 2017 10:44 pm
I am not gay so I dont know what its like for you in that regard. But I do know the point of view from the boy that you did this to. Because when I was eight a twelve year old boy started trying to do sexual things with me... I wanted to tell somebody very much but I had kind of liked it also. (Just like the young boy that you did this with) But eventually this started happening more and more. And the boy who did this started wanting more and more. I felt dirty and disgusting and I hated it. I didn't want to do it anymore. But he kept persisting and started making me do things with him. He didn't stop doing these things until last year when he turned 18. Im 14 now. And I regret everything. I realise now that I had become a victim. And what he did was wrong. What you did to that little boy was wrong. I suggest that you speak to your parents about it and See a counselor. And never take advances on someone like that again. The age difference is different between what happened to me and what happened with you but it was still wrong and you need to take care of it before you do something really bad.
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