I think I'm depressed.

**Posts:** 8 · by **anon1313** » Tue Nov 25, 2008 5:37 am

I don't even know where to start. I'm 23. I've been an alcoholic since the age of 18. Binge drinking 5 - 7 nights a week. I was always an odd person in high school. I only had a few close friends and didn't do much. I did track for the first 3 years of high school. My senior year is when i really noticed how depressed i was. I slept in until noon and forged notes most days. I still sleep 10+ hours a day and up to 15 on weekends. I failed out of college 2 times and recently stopped going to classes again. I have a broken ankle sustained during a night of drinking which has kept me basically in bed. I feel much worse during the winter months.

3 weeks ago I quit drinking because of the pain meds im on for the ankle. I detoxed threw up like crazy and felt like crap for a week. A month ago my gf of nearly 2 years left me and she has a new bf already. Im emotionless to it. I loved her very much but I didn't cry or feel anything. Since I stopped drinking I feel a lot worse. It takes me hours to fall asleep and I can't stop thinking about how I'm a terrible person.

I dont want to get out of bed. I dont want to make food. I don't eat most days and when i do its just enough to keep going. I basically stay in bed all the time. I have no insurance and dont even know where to look for help. I dont know what to do so I figured I'd ask here.

**Posts:** 5126 · by **Triarius** » Tue Nov 25, 2008 6:14 pm

well it's good that you quit drinking.

You should keep that part up. Other than that, it's just a matter of facing and dealing with your issues instead of hiding from them.

**Posts:** 4 · by **findme** » Wed Nov 26, 2008 10:40 am

anon1313 wrote:I don't even know where to start. I'm 23. I've been an alcoholic since the age of 18. Binge drinking 5 - 7 nights a week. I was always an odd person in high school. I only had a few close friends and didn't do much. I did track for the first 3 years of high school. My senior year is when i really noticed how depressed i was. I slept in until noon and forged notes most days. I still sleep 10+ hours a day and up to 15 on weekends. I failed out of college 2 times and recently stopped going to classes again. I have a broken ankle sustained during a night of drinking which has kept me basically in bed. I feel much worse during the winter months.

3 weeks ago I quit drinking because of the pain meds im on for the ankle. I detoxed threw up like crazy and felt like crap for a week. A month ago my gf of nearly 2 years left me and she has a new bf already. Im emotionless to it. I loved her very much but I didn't cry or feel anything. Since I stopped drinking I feel a lot worse. It takes me hours to fall asleep and I can't stop thinking about how I'm a terrible person.

I dont want to get out of bed. I dont want to make food. I don't eat most days and when i do its just enough to keep going. I basically stay in bed all the time. I have no insurance and dont even know where to look for help. I dont know what to do so I figured I'd ask here.

im 19 and i binge drink since i was about 17 before that it was cocaine and other methamphetamines. i quit the amphetamines a long time ago but i feel as if i need an addiction to cover my sadness. i dont know where this emotion stems from but its there burried deep in my person. i never look foward to getting up, most days i sleep in and hide from the world. i feel like there is no escape from myself and this sadness. i just dont even know anymore. am i depressed or am i just ........ a hopeless cause.

**Posts:** 5126 · by **Triarius** » Wed Nov 26, 2008 3:14 pm

uh... you are aware enough to know that the root is deep in you, but you don't know what to do about it?

Face it! Dig it out. Writing works really well.

**Posts:** 228 · by **lp_ultra** » Wed Nov 26, 2008 11:52 pm

seta37 wrote:well it's good that you quit drinking.

You should keep that part up. Other than that, it's just a matter of facing and dealing with your issues instead of hiding from them.

Seta,

I've read through a few of your replies and you seem to adopt a very direct and hostile approach. I don't see the point in replying unless you can give some proper advice.

Your quote of "it's just a matter of facing and dealing with your issues instead of hiding from them." is just stating the obvious. Is it not obvious that everybody in the world need to deal with their problems? The point is here is to help the person get to the stage where they're ready to deal with their problems or at the very least give them some insight into why they may be hiding from them.

Your posts are simply not helpful - try a different approach (like displaying at least a little empathy).

**Posts:** 5126 · by **Triarius** » Thu Nov 27, 2008 2:01 am

I try different approaches on different people. I'm learning all the time. Lately I have been trying the more aggressive approach to see where it's useful limits are.

In a few cases (and in myself) empathy is not necessary. To my reasoning, it is catering to weakness. I know that sounds heartless, but think about how the strong father figure acts. "Are you okay? Can you stand? Walk it off". See, when you cater to weakness, that's all that remains.

The ironic thing is that in most cases, I say the same exact things, just with subtle changes to alter to feel of the post, more "aggressive" or more "empathic".

Also, often times, I simply use statement of fact, because that's the way the world is. The world doesn't care if you feel bad about X, Y, and Z. The sooner that someone gets used to this idea, the sooner they are strong enough to get over depression and anxiety.

If you read further back on my posts, you will find that I can be very empathic.

**Posts:** 8 · by **anon1313** » Fri Dec 05, 2008 8:05 am

findme wrote:
anon1313 wrote:I don't even know where to start. I'm 23. I've been an alcoholic since the age of 18. Binge drinking 5 - 7 nights a week. I was always an odd person in high school. I only had a few close friends and didn't do much. I did track for the first 3 years of high school. My senior year is when i really noticed how depressed i was. I slept in until noon and forged notes most days. I still sleep 10+ hours a day and up to 15 on weekends. I failed out of college 2 times and recently stopped going to classes again. I have a broken ankle sustained during a night of drinking which has kept me basically in bed. I feel much worse during the winter months.

3 weeks ago I quit drinking because of the pain meds im on for the ankle. I detoxed threw up like crazy and felt like crap for a week. A month ago my gf of nearly 2 years left me and she has a new bf already. Im emotionless to it. I loved her very much but I didn't cry or feel anything. Since I stopped drinking I feel a lot worse. It takes me hours to fall asleep and I can't stop thinking about how I'm a terrible person.

I dont want to get out of bed. I dont want to make food. I don't eat most days and when i do its just enough to keep going. I basically stay in bed all the time. I have no insurance and dont even know where to look for help. I dont know what to do so I figured I'd ask here.

im 19 and i binge drink since i was about 17 before that it was cocaine and other methamphetamines. i quit the amphetamines a long time ago but i feel as if i need an addiction to cover my sadness. i dont know where this emotion stems from but its there burried deep in my person. i never look foward to getting up, most days i sleep in and hide from the world. i feel like there is no escape from myself and this sadness. i just dont even know anymore. am i depressed or am i just ........ a hopeless cause.

ok you win

@lp_ultra and @seta37

pm each other if you have an issue. yes they were stating the obvious but it was something I did need to hear. I posted that under the influence of my pills. Things have managed to get slightly better time heals everything and im still not drinking.

Thanks all for the help.

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