i am new to this website, but came upon it today while trying to find ways to cope with my anxiety and depression. my problem right now is that i don't have health insurance and have very little money to work with on treating it. i am going to go to the southern nevada mental health department tomorrow in hopes of getting some sort of help. i think my biggest problem with dealing with the anxiety is that i don't know anyone here in vegas. i just moved here with my best friend 8 months ago. it is so hard to met people and even harder when i don't have any money to go out. my room mate is pretty understanding because he deals with anxiety and depression as well, he just deals with it in a different way then i do.
i think the fact that my dad doesn't believe in people haven't emotional problems doesn't help me much. he is trying to help me with my financial problems, but doesn't understand why i just can't go and talk to all the lawyers in the world. he can't understand why some days i just can't leave the house, or am to scared i will have a panic attack while there.
i am working right now, but called in sick all last week because i could barely move. i lied to my employer about what was wrong because i was scared to tell them i have a mental illness. but now they want a note from the doctor before i can go back to work. i think i decided i am going to go in and tell them the truth and just hope they are understanding enough not to fire me. they have been very good to me so far and seem to really like me, but i am so scared they will not accept the lying.
wow, i actually feel better all ready just by typing all of this out. maybe i needed to cry and maybe it helped to know i am not the only one who goes through it.
i hope i didn't go on for to long so that no one will respond, but it did feel good to let it out.
thanks