I have to say, now I'm curious as to what mental hospitals are about, always been given a bad name, assuming that is what antigreen means.
Antigreen, I think mental institutes are only for the psychologically unstable, such as those who are psychotic, most people who are suicidal get treatment for depression through therapy and drugs (although I have doubts over drug's effectiveness).
I'm curious as to your intentions, do you want to be imprisoned for some reason? I have to say, I've had similiar thoughts, 'what if I killed so and so, would prison mean my future would be definately crap instead of all this uncertainty that is driving me insane, would it be something I'd get a strange sadistic pleasure out of, persevering in a place where I want to die, maybe I'd enjoy punishing myself in that way?', unless of course your thoughts are nothing like mine, which they're most possibly not.
Take care, Antigreen
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