every day i go through life with hardships because of my inability to effectively communicate and connect with people. every day i wish i could talk more and express my feelings but something is holding me back. i talk to people like as if its my first time talking to them, i can not progress in relationships, i feel like i am starting over and over again i don't know what to do. i have few friends that i catch up with sometimes but i don't feel free with them either, our relationship is not authentic for that reason i don't really have much fun with them. i cant speak my mind i just go along with what they say and by the end of the day i come back home feeling really bad about myself. i am a very sensitive person, i don't like to make others feel bad and when i see someone purposely trying to make me feel down about myself i feel very hurt and upset and this has happened to me a lot of times. i don't know what to do to change that. i want to be able to express my feelings and have a meaningful relationships but i don't know if i will ever be able to do that. can anyone please help?
thank you