Suicide

Were you retrenched, Sammy, and now can't find work? Can you afford to feed and shelter yourself?

No I've been so stupid and have made no provision for my retirement have money just now and work but the feelingf of being completely worthless makes it so very hard to keep going.

Where do you think this "worthless" feeling comes from? Can you pinpoint when and why it started?

I think my worthlessness comes from the fact that for years I just didn't see what was happening wilful ignorance and now I'm in a position that is my fault. Shouldn't be a reason to end it but I sit here and can think of nothing else.

It isn't going to help to beat yourself up for what's done, or in this case, wasn't done.

Can you still work? It wouldn't be easy because of the general downsizing going on, but if you had something interesting and remunerative to do it might stop these thoughts. My tip is to consider an entirely different career to the one you had.

I try every day I have much to be thankful for family friends etc but the joy seems gone though I try so very hard. I need a change of .I'd set but how? Your replies are much appreciated thank you

Ironically, although a change of mindset has to come from you, I don't think you can force these things. If the joy is gone -- and I believe you that your world has gone dark -- it's time to be kinder on yourself rather than tougher. Try the most potent of Louise Hay's affirmations:

I love and approve of myself, exactly as I am.

So, you don't have to make yourself feel thankful for what you have, it's okay to say "This isn't enough!" and let yourself feel whatever comes up. You don't have to be afraid of your anger, only to avoid directing it at yourself.

As a good therapist once said to me, "The only way out is through".

hate is easy; you can hate others you can hate oneself

love is easier, effortless, you just stop hating and start loving, enjoying

dont hate oneself, love oneself