Angel- I'm sorry for the delay in reply. My attention span the past few days has been about this big >>o<<! It's been a sh!tty week altogether. I'm so effing OVER this crap! ! ! ! ! Needless to say, I've been in a terrible mood.
I did get a little smile reading how you play with your son. Children are so wonderful, so honest. When I'm out and about, shopping or something, and hear children laughing it makes my heart leap a little. That sound is just magical.
Isn't it interesting that we all use cleaning as one of our distractions? What's with that, I wonder? They say our house symbolizes our body. Maybe there's something to that concept.
I'm glad to hear your sister has been supportive. And I definitely agree that these issues are genetic- that there's a physical component. My sister would be a help if I let her in on my story. But she has a very hectic life with her own kids and work and school and problems- I just can't bring myself to burden her with my drudgery.
Karen- I don't know how to heal the neglect we endured by our parents, either. Like you, I try to not to live as a victim of my past. But I believe if we could heal these wounds, it would make a giant difference in our ability to overcome the ED. Whenever I try, though, like in therapy, it seems like I'm even worse off for it.
I hope you're having somewhat better days. We've gotten a big snowstorm since yesterday- and the well pump at the barn wasn't working last night, frozen I guess, so that means I need to haul water from the house through 15" of snow. And MAN I don't feel like it. I hate hearing myself complain- I just don't feel like doing ANYTHING.