Hi, I'm Marce, I'm 14, and when I was eleven I made this imaginary friend. I later made her a book character and started writing about her. Her name is Imogen.
I created her because I was lonely, starting to get depressed, and I wanted someone to talk to. I still am very lonely and have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, despite having a small group of friends. I made her with flaws. I made her with strengths. I wanted to make her as real as possible. When I was 12, I started falling in love with her and it troubled me a lot for a while but I brushed it off. To cope with the fact that she couldn't ever love me back because she's not real unless I made her, I made an alter ego of myself and wrote about them. I still do. When I'm falling asleep I pretend she's there with me. When I'm taking a walk on my own I talk out loud to no one and have a full on conversation. When I want to die I talk to her about it and sometimes when I don't, I just remember that if I die that she dies too and I can't have that happen. And lately, she's become a little too real to me. I care about her more than I do a lot of people I've known my whole life. I just don't want to talk to anyone I know about it because I'm afraid they'll think I'm a basket case.
I'd like to talk a little about what she's like. She can be narcissistic and overly confident when she's not feeling good and a bit of an attention seeker. But she's a very good listener and is very loyal and considerate. When I was 11 I had an obsession with albinos (I still kind of do) so that's how I thought of her and although it's very rare, I've never wanted to change her. She likes dyeing her hair (her favourite has been jet black so far) and wearing black shirts with bright contrasting designs on them. She also really likes sleeping when it rains. If anyone else is familiar with MBTI, I'd personally type her as an ENFJ.
I guess the reason why I'm posting this is because I want to know if anyone else has done the same out of loneliness or any other reason