6 months weed free

Life has been miserable. I am so thankful I don't have an urge to smoke weed but I am so angry at myself for letting weed rule my life for 15 years. I am 33 and have a long life a head of me but feel weed is ruining it at this time. My issues are not even mental. My depression and anxiety have improved a lot since the beginning but what I am suffering from now are physical issues. Some days I am able to hangout with friends and nothing bothers me at all. Other days I have constant headaches, head pressure, burning eyes, and sh** sleep. I feel like this is never going to end. I guess the plus side is some days are easier then others but I do not feel like the improvement is enough.

I see so many posts on how people are improving and only suffering from anxiety and depression. I sometimes wish those were my only issues because these physical symptoms are really debilitating. I also have health anxiety so when sometime is wrong with me I really freak out. I have a family and I want to be 100% for them so I can be the best husband and father. I just want to cry. I hate this. I want to be whole again.