Hello everybody! This is my first post on this forum, and I hope that I'll be able to express my ideas correctly. Also the topic may seem a bit strange, but maybe that's a defect of my own personality.
I am a 17-year old boy living in Italy and I always want to share my knowledge with other people, I want to talk, etc.
I've read some articles and some guides about Neurolinguistic Programmation, and, after having read that many "feeling", "emotions" and "thoughts" are actually only chemical reactions which can be discovered(I think this is a fact and not something to discuss upon) and after having read about psychological manipulation, etc. (I'm not writing all the details), I came to the obvious conclusion that these manipulative acts can be also used for negative reasons. Infact, if we talk about self-confidence and charisma, Adolf Hitler and Benito Mussolini were true leaders in such sector.
I am truly interested in finding out the [chemical] background of eloquence and generally communication (especially what's behind what all of us call "love").
As I said before, I like to "share my knowledges" and I often read a lot and talk about the things I discover in my daily life. I simply talk about such things with everybody, but what I don't like is that thereby some people start seeing me as a person who lives with books, a "know-everything", a nerd, or even a person who wants to show off. I think you get my point.
The day I talked in my classroom about some facts that humans are easily manipulable through simple chemical ways (olfactory, images) and also through eloquence and NLP, I gained the respect of the teacher but also looked like a fool in front of my classmates.
I understand that a "normal" 17-year old boy doesn't go and read so many things but this is simply my personality, I am curious and I also like to explain in a scientific way.
The critical part is that I fear of being sometimes put under pressure by the reactions of my classmates when I talk "too complicated stuff". The really eloquent guys continue joking about the words I use when I speak about the things I've read... and the bad thing is that THEY are the people who have influence on others. I hope you see my problem.
I truly lose my confidence sometimes when my good friends are "influenced" by the people who joke about me and my "discoveries" and they, too, start doing the same.
Now, as I'm here and writing what happens in school it's easy, but when I'm there in the precise moment, it's difficult to control my OWN feelings [although I learned a lot about what's behind] and to convince the others that the things I say are not nonsense. Yes, and sometimes I also feel that I'm wrong...
In a few words... after such experiences I feel uncomfortable speaking about things the others don't know.
I would truly appreciate your advice. I would like to look smart among my friends but not a person who shows off and "talks like a book" (that's what I lately consider myself).
Please help