Day 5: Quitting Smoking Weed

Hello,

I was feeling so crazy the last time I created a post. I don't even think it made like 100% complete sense. I was already having crazy mood swings that day. Noticing it, I was taking time to breathe and relax. I think I am handling it better. I keep getting this feeling I can only compare to loneliness. Waking up weird hours with cold sweats, migraine, not hungry like ever but I'm making myself eat at least once a day and also I'm like crazy thirsty? I've been drinking water non stop. Still waiting to see if I will start to feel more motivated. I used to smoke before literally doing anything. I used to make music covers before I started smoking and they would bring me such joy. I don't feel as excited about it as before but I would love to start doing that again. I think I am missing that worry free feeling I would feel after smoking. I hope that goes away soon. Couple good things are I've been able to clean stuff I was putting off and finally also getting easier to let go of my ex cuz I was holding on to that for a long time.....I've been working out everyday. I feel like my future is looking brighter.

(I want to add in here how my weekend went cuz that was a little hard I felt like I didn't wanna do anything and I spent most my time sitting staring at my phone. Everything just seemed so boring/tiring. Anything I did do, I forced myself. By the end of Sunday I was super over the feeling of not wanting to do anything. I feel a little better today...don't even want to look at my phone today I stared at it so much this weekend.)


How I feel today:
A little empty
Self Aware
Determined to keep changing for the better