Hello everyone. I believe I have a weird situation about my self esteem.
The problem is that I know I am very very attractive guy but yet my self esteem is most of the times quite low. What do I mean about that. All my life my relationships and personal encounters with woman were by them approaching me, them asking me out, them complimenting me. But now in my mid 30's I realized that I can't talk to woman.
I find myself seeing a woman I like and just freeze. I just look at them. It is quite different however if a girl looks and smiles and it's obvious that her eyes are locked at me. Then I let go and just flirt back and I am quite good at it.
I just can't handle the fact that when there are no obvious clues by the woman I am interested in I am filled with anxiety and freeze like a pathetic person.
I'll give you an example of an incident that happened last month. From the beginning of the month I went to a job interview. The girl that was interviewing me which she was younger then me and quite pretty said "Oh I see in your form that you are single. Single and quite handsome I see".
Few days later I was at my local supermarket and the girl that worked there blinked and smiled and she was 18-19 and also gorgeous.
Few days after I came across to a woman by age and she couldn't get her eyes off of me. BUT a few days later I saw a woman I liked, she gave me no clues if she was interested. I decided to talk to her and I JUST FROZE. Just looked at her and thought of ALL the reasons not to talk to her. Cheap excuses actually like, I can't right now, i spend too much money already. Or that I might have nothing to say. You know just cheap excuses my mind was using to avoid the anxiety.
No matter how much I pushed my self reminding myself how attractive I am, the previous encounters that they are is nothing wrong with me, quite the opposite, I just froze.
Please help. I try to push myself to pass the anxiety but it just doesn't work.
Thank you