I'm in a training course for job like hell. There is a girl in an other class ı lookat her sometimes and she looks at me sometimes thepoint ı couldn't understand is her attitutude towards me continously changes ı understand this from her facial expressions and body language she sometimes seems positive sometimes negative. Anyways I'm certainly in no condition to pursue a girl this would make my situation only worse but ı couldn't understand this girl. Maybe some genuisity can understand
Another point is my desire to women goes to subconscious but some of its effects are visible like not feeling music, ı think my desire mixes with agression and causes symptoms like mental confusion and even lack of appetite sometimes but ı still don't feel anything towards opposite gender visible.