I feel like my friends dont like me and avoid me

over the last 6 months ive felt as if ive been ignored and avoided by my only 2 friends. We usually do something every weekend.
It all started when i had asked them both if they wanted to meet up but got ignored. I then found out they had both gone out and had a great time. These sorts of thing hurt me but they dont understand.

I feel like they dont want to be my friends but wont admit it. ive sat in on my own and have barely spoken to either of them for 6 weeks, which i find odd as we usually speak most days. but when i question them i either dont get a response or it gets shrugged off .

We have fallen out at the moment and feel theu are talking about me behind my back making fun of me. neither have bothered to contact me knowing how i feel. Its really getting me down atm and i feel so lonley ive never felt like this before.

I dont know what to do, i dread the weekends as atleast ive got people to talkto at work. sometimes im sure im depressed, and am being paranoid and its all in my head and ive ruined a perfectly good friendship, i miss them and love them to bits but iy seems they dont care, please help.. i just want to be happy. im sick of my life, im 23 year old manand i cant remember a time ahere ive felt happy myself or my life