by calmy12 » Fri Apr 25, 2014 8:48 pm
Thanks all for the encouragement.
Right now my heart is pounding. In fact, it's been pounding very fast since yesterday everytime I think about this project. I didn't do any preparation yesterday. I procrastinated and avoid looking into it and did other things like buying stationery that I will need to do the project, and I slept early because I need to be refreshed for the coming days.
Originally, this project was given to my other colleague to do, but she told our manager she was too busy with other work. Now the project is given to me at the very last minute without any preparation what so ever. This isn't the first time it happened. I hate when I'm not copied into in emails or told about any upcoming projects and they expected me to do it. Anyway, my manager told me if I can finish off the project he 'might' consider me given me a permanent position. I'm not interested in this so called permanent position anymore. I just hate to be treated like a bouncing ball or a nobody at work.
Anyway. I'm going to treat this as a learning experience and for self development.
My major fear is I have to deliver this project in front of 50 staff members. I get stage fright. When I am nervous, I speak incoherently or forget what I wanted to say.
Two days left. I need to concentrate now. Im convincing myself not to think about the negatives. I need to be grateful for what I have.