straughairium wrote:Hi everyone, I really need some advice regarding my anger. I am very easily agitated and angered, and have trying to be more relaxed as I am a 20 year old university student living with other students. As a result, I need to be more relaxed and calmer in my dealings with my housemates. Unfortunately two days ago we had a bit of an argument; I am often unwell with migraines or poor health, and on Tuesday night I was suffering one of these episodes. I went to bed at 10.30pm and was trying to sleep, when a couple of my housemates decided to play their music very loudly, and therefore I found it hard to sleep. I politely asked them to turn it down in our group conversation, and when no response was made or any indication that they would do so, I began to get agitated. I went upstairs and asked them to do so in person, but they seemed to find this funny and laughed at me and didn't seem to listen. I went back to bed, put my earphones in, but the music increased in volume and they decided to jump about as well, in the room above me. Now I got really angry, and I went back upstairs, and asked why they had so little regard for me and called them selfish.
Clearly, this was not a clear-thinking action to take. I need some advice regarding how to stay calm in situations like these, or I risk ruining my friendships. I have since apologised for the way I spoke and for my behaviour, but I am worried more situations like this will arise. This isn't the first time I've been angry with them, but it's the first time I've lashed out and acted rashly. Normally I would remove myself from the situation but I despise not being listened to. When I'm angry, I get these awful palpitations and my blood pressure rises drastically, and so I'm concerned for my own health as well. Anger is one of my biggest flaws, and I really need some help with controlling it, as well.
I understand perfectly what you are dealing with. Individuals, groups, cliques, tribes, gangs, crews, posses, etc, well, when they are not absolutely required to behave in a civilized manner by some very compelling or powerful Authority, well, they tend to behave at what they feel is their maximum capacity for Dominance – that is, in short, they’ll do whatever they think they can get away with. In line with what Deechman said (see previous post ), people and groups of people become ‘bullies’ if there is no larger ‘bully’ (or sense of compelling Authority or binding Morality) to keep them in line. I hear that in Prisons the individual prisoners feel that they have very compelling reasons for joining up with gangs in order to acquire some strength through unity with others, and the opposing gangs tend to keep each other in line (and here we all thought that the Guards were supposed to be doing all that). In High Schools they don’t call them ‘gangs’; they call them cliques, or if that word is too French nowadays, they refer to themselves as crews. There is not much fighting, I suppose, but one attains a certain amount of peace and security by simply staying with one’s clique or crew whenever possible. Strength in numbers. Yes, and I suppose people told you that it would be different in college. Well, it should have been. One of the Problems nowadays is the supreme rise of Science and subsequently the mental habit of applying all Thought and Value Judgment against the measures of Scientific Reasoning. That sounds good on the face of it, but it leads to a stark and unscrupulous disregard for Morality. Yes, Philosophy has tried to give Morality a place in our Modern World of Science, but they have simply not succeeded. We have Ethics in the place of where we used to keep Morality, but Ethics is whatever one can get away with, isn’t it? Morality had been a Belief System, based on some intangible sense for Quality and a Goodness that Philosophy finds hard to define in terms of Quantifiables. With Morality the compulsion for people to behave good and decently came from within, from an undefinable spirituality. But Science has brought in its wake a sense where all actions and decisions have only some Material reference – as a Society we do not really have any coherent morality or spirituality anymore – we live in a vast Materialism, and Society rewards those who are the most consciously and deliberately Materialistic. And that means that people will do whatever they think they can get away with. Look, nowadays they even have Cheating in the Military Academies, as it turns out that there is simply no Material Basis for being Honorable. Mostly it is all about Money or Status. But, in colleges, apparently, some of the Materialists are willing to exercise their vast range and sweep simply for a Laugh. Torturing you must have brought a smile to their faces and a passing tingle of sadistic pleasure. And so isn’t it nice to know that you have found some purpose in Life?
Anyway, reading of your situation, well, good for you that you thought you behaved too angrily. But actually, on the scale of things, you maintained quite a bit of composure. Compared to a lot of us, you behaved quite well. But anger is not always about our overt behavior, but how it tears us up inside, and destroys our peace of mind while it has a hold of us. Under such conditions, it is often good to modify the way we generally think about such situations. I’ve been looking into Cognitive Behavior Therapy, and have been reading a book: – “Cognitive and Dialectical Therapy Unleashed”, by James Ashley. It’s a good little affordable book that tells us how to change our thinking in order to change our behavior. In your case, you are quite the gentleman and need very little behavior modification, but you could use more peace of mind, and for that, well, you have to tweak your mind a little bit and change the way you ‘take’ some things.
Oh, and you already know about Avoidance – if you can’t beat them, then runaway from them. You already found that headphones are good against too much noise. There are various White Noise Generators available on line… I just took a look, and the first one I found was better than the ones I used to use, as it has the capacity to selectively push up certain frequency ranges which you could use to best match your white noise against the noise that you are attempting to drown out. You could also figure out where to go when you must absolutely abandon your room. I used to get a lot of work done in the Library and the lounges. Oh, and I used to find the Coed Dorms quieter and so you might try to befriend some of the Coeds in your classes and have them take you on as a study partner.
Anyway, good luck with it all. Try to figure out ways to mentally cope and feel good about what seems now like a very bad situation. Materialism isn’t going away any time soon and it seems that each new generation has less and less of the residual Morality that had been integral to our Previous Civilization, the one that Science swept away, while laughing at its Old Moralities as so many senseless superstitions. Morality survived only in the form of traditional habits passed down through family custom and behavior modelling. But there is little nowadays to reinforce what is left of Morality and I expect that it is soon to disappear completely. And the only way you can get away from all those loud, brutal, nasty and noisy Materialistic people is to eventually get your own secluded place and isolate yourself from them. But that takes money, and to make money you must keep in school and then join with the flocks of all those Materialists (with whom you will have to compete, and with you being a ‘nice guy’, we can guess how that will work out for you) and you must try to make enough money so you can finally afford to get away from them all. And even then you will only have as much Peace as your own Peace of Mind will allow you. Take care.