by Samantha123_57 » Sun Jul 16, 2017 11:24 am
Hi I haven't been on a forum before but feel it may help me, i smoked every day for 9 and a half years, in 2014 my mum had a brain hemmorhage and I found out I was pregnant .. I had no support from my partner (just married) found out he was having an affair .. broke up in Jan when my son was 7months old my mum still ill.. I smoked more than before and began drinking two bottles of wine a night .. I then met a guy in October that has never smoked anything and I began to smoke less... I went 3days without smoking and then my mate came up and I had a lil .. pulled a whitey (which had never happened in the whole 9 and half years of smoking ) I was so scared and swore I would never smoke again(especially because I was already suffering from anxiety) I threw my box away and have not touched it since... on the 21st of this month it will be 2months cold turkey ...... I have only a few good days but mostly bad.. legs and arms will suddenly go numb and I overthink everything..I can't drink alcohol,coffee,fizzy drinks.. eat food I used to.. everything has to be plain .. I get scared over small things and can't socialise like I used to, I cannot be in crowded places or go cinema ... I'm scared it's going to ruin the relationship I now have .. I'm scared because I want these feelings to go away.. the shakes and throwing up have slowly stopped , but the headaches and numbness and feeling faint scares me .. especially when it comes out of no where and happens even when I'm out randomly.. please let me know if you have felt the same and if it has passed.. will I feel normal again or am I going to be like this forever ? 2months have felt like a living hell ...