I feel so abandoned tonight

I am sitting in a park atm , 27 year old Croatian in Germany , so typical . I have familly here and I came around 7 months ago . Since day one I had a big breakup from a relationship that was .. would rather to avoid sayin.

Long story short ... many panic attacks and depression and anxiety , today was one of the rare days when I feel and feel myself ( dp and dr were around all the time ) and okay some stuff are behing although I am just coming back to it like a dog to a bone .

One thing .. me going trough this period or any period before seems same basicaly. i just feel now that I know my ‘problem ‘ better and getting over it but at the same time I am so lonely as I feel my fears and needs and everything much more , so if anyone is into chatting or something would be great .

I feel like a man without past present or future , all I know is unreality and mind ( most of the days )