Hi cyp!
I am 16 now, and have been suffering from GAD and panic attacks from when I was around 9 or 10 and went into therapy only seven months ago. I also have experienced a similar pattern to my panic attacks at night time, I feel more aware of my symptoms as I lie down and the worry keeps me awake. Sometimes, this awareness launches me into a panic attack, other times not, but if it does, I can be up till all hours, usually 3am or something, just terrified to lie down again. I have the added stress of being in school on time though, as I need to get up at 6:45 to catch two trains to get there, so often as I don't sleep well in the first place, I am severely deprived of sleep in school, which my teachers love!
Recently I have been put on the tricyclic antidepressant Amitriptyline (at 20mg now), sometimes called Elavil, (mainly for pain relief from GAD's awful digestive symptoms, but it can also curb panic, though it has not been effective for me in this way). I am assuming from my knowledge of anti-anxiety drugs that Inderal is the brand name for the beta-blocker propranolol? I have received this drug a week ago from my GP and have yet to take it, so I'm particularly interested in seeing others responses. I am on 10mg as required up to 3 times a day, but I am a bit of a medicine phobic, so I am waiting for just the right time to start it, as it is a drowsy medication though at such a low dosage I should be fine. The main side effects associated with this drug are light-headedness, low blood pressure etc, and I have generally heard nothing but good reports about this drug. My mother is also on the drug and she has nothing but praise for it. It's FDA approved for treatment of heart attack patients and palpitations etc, but it is well known that this drug is very effective in the reduction of anxiety and panic.
Inderal is used for "stage-fright" anxiety, and is normally taken before public speaking or stage performances, like a concert performance or the likes. It is usually taken about 40 minutes or an hour before this performance. The drug itself blocks the effect of adrenaline in your body and so dramatically reduces the heart palps, the sweaty hands and body, the shaking etc, and the panic symptoms you identify with. BUT it should be noted that propranolol CANNOT stop the mental symptoms of panic disorder, and you should seek out some therapy to help you deal with this side. Medications should only be considered a short-term option to "break the cycle" so to speak as they are a prevention and not a cure. Ideally, you would want to never have to face the panic attacks again right? Popping pills when you feel panicky does not help you solve the problem, but in a way only delays it. The dysfunctional thoughts you are having that are causing panic are still there (for example I'd imagine you get anxious about going to sleep now in case you have an attack? I am like this) and it is those thought you want to work on to help you get back on your feet and lead a normal life. If desired, you can live on medication (which, like you, I disapprove of as I don't see it as a cure), you can fix your thoughts by therapy, or a combined approach of medication and therapy (which I am currently trying) The main medications open to you are anti-depressants (though not used for treating depression, but these can be highly effective if you suffer from both) in the tricyclic or SSRI form. SSRI's are the newer range which include zoloft, paxil etc. Buspar is a standalone drug and is relatively ineffective in treating panic disorder but can be used in conjunction with others to treat it effectively. also there are the beta blockers which are highly effective for panic attacks. Lastly there are the benzodiazepines which I think would be effective for you (though I'm not a doctor lol) because of their sedative effect they could help you to sleep better, and they work instantly whereas the other antidepressants etc generally take 4-6 weeks to kick in.
There are generally two types of therapy available for treatment of this disorder which are called Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) and psychotherapy. CBT is a highly structured program aimed at changing your thoughts and psychotherapy is designed to look into your past and make connections between the past and the present. Psychotherapy is quite invasive and many people liek this treatment as it gives them an opportunity to talk their story through start to finish and there is always new material to talk through everyday, so the therapy can go on for years. CBT requires much work and determination, and looks at replacing the irrational thoughts causing your panic/anxiety and changing them to rational one. Changing your automatic negative thoughts to positive ones. Both are options I urge you to consider - The more types of treatment you try, the better the results. Don't give in quickly, as all of these, medication or therapy, take a long time to start working, though it is well worth the wait.
It would also be useful to invest your time learning some breathing and relaxation techniques. I can run over some if you want to start you off. Yoga is a GREAT stress reliever if you can find a video, book or - even better - a class. Hypnosis is another option which you could try - I probably will be getting this treatment sometime soon, my GP is considering this.
Education about the disorder is essential in recovery. It is highly beneficial to research your condition and learn how it works. This is why therapy is a great option. This is how I know quite a lot about medications and such as I go to great lengths to find out more about the disorder and how it works in me. You could buy a few books. I've read three and 2 out of the 3 have been brilliant and very informative and helpful. I recommend The Anxiety Cure by Robert L Dupont, Elizabeth Dupont Spencer and Caroline M Dupont (I feel this book is good in that it teaches you about anxiety and then goes on to help you work through it) and Panic Attacks by Christine Ingham. Invest in a good book and it will be well worth your while.
I realise I went on a bit
All the best!