by Serendipity54 » Wed Dec 11, 2019 10:09 pm
I don't even know where to start, but basically I have a sort of unhealthy cycle with people: a honeymoon phase in which everything is amazing, I love them with all of me and I somehow make them think I'm the best, then things get too intense and I suddenly become distant and start ignoring/arguing with these people. I've done this with everyone I've been friends with, but no matter what, they all remained my friends...the problem is that they all know how I am like now, they're all hurt from it and are cold towards me, especially when they feel like I'm going through the 'honeymoon phase' for like the 100th time. Nobody trusts me anymore, and it pains me because I don't know how to control this but I miss what I used to have with all these people before I went and f***ed it up. How do I stop this cycle?