Hi brightonxbirdx,
A warm welcome to the Forum.
Your last message didn't get on to the board, must have disappeared in the ether!
So you used to be confident, and a nursery supervisor, but things have become harder since you've started having these unpleasnt feelings.
As you may have noticed from reading the posts on this Forum a lot of people have had similar experiences and have overcome their panic attacks to once again feel calm and confident in those situations.
A good starting point is to have a look at the
Panic Attacks Website, which many have found informative and useful.
You want to do something about it, but feel scared to go to the doctor, there are however other places to go for help, that may have an environment that is more comfortable for you. For example, many people have found great benefits from seeing a hypnotherapist who is trained in assisting people overcome panic attacks, so that you can once again feel calm and confident in situations that are now a challenge.
On the website I referred you to above, you can if you wish buy a CD/tape, which of course you could use at home.
Best wishes and let us know how things progress.